So there is exactly 1 month to the wedding as of today - have the nerves set in yet?  Nope.  I am not even nervous.  This weekend I am going to go talk to the florist to see about getting flowers.  I don't really need to get a lot because we decided that we are going to put candles on the tables, so I basically need flowers for me to hold, flowers for me to throw and then I want to get a big arrangement for this "wishing well" thing that they have in their yard that we are getting married by.  Other then that - no more flowers for me... oh yeah and petals for Brooklen to drop on the ground... forgot about that.  So that shouldn't be terribly expensive.  Nope.  Yesterday I found the thank you cards that I wanted on sale, so I bought those and last night I started working on my parent's and Joe's parents gifts.  Good stuff.  Joe and I are also going to get the regular drinks this weekend to get them out of the way... so basically everything is done.  I think almost everyone RSVP'ed except like 5 people and I know out of those five I know that three aren't coming.  So... basically everyone RSVP'ed.  So that is cool... Yesterday I paid the first payment on the tent and after I get my numbers finalized - I get to pay the rest.  Everyone has until September 1st - then I am going to mark them as not coming!!!    But yuppers... 1 month to the wedding...

Other then that my life has been pretty boring.  Last night Joe and I went out to eat at this Mexican restraurant that my dad got a gift certficate for me for my birthday... so that was cool - I didn't have to cook!    Joe's mouth is feeling a lot better... he says the only time it hurts is when he is brushing his gums now - but he can eat and all that just fine.  He went all day yesterday without smoking and I could tell that he was sort of in a mood - but not bad... I figure if he can get through a week then he should be good.  His friend Jonathan is trying to quit too so they are keeping up on each other.  I guess they have a bet or something who can go the longest... I am not sure what they bet, but we will see how long it lasts.

Welp the phone is already ringing and I haven't had coffee...

So as always I have been busy - too busy for my liking.  Yesterday I was off because Joe had to get some work done on his teeth.  He had an infection in his gums so they had to clean under them or something like that.  I felt bad for him because he was scared to death to get it done, but the dentist said if he didn't have it done, eventually his the infection would go from the gum, to the bone, then to the roots of his teeth making his teeth fall out.  Of course that would have taken years to take place, but you might as well nip it in the butt ASAP.  So he got one side of his mouth done and has to get the other side next week.  He was in pain all last night - but the good thing that will come out of this is he is actually going to try to quit smoking because they said the infection can be caused by smoking.  Yesterday he had a cigeratte at like 6:00 in the morning, but hasn't had one since.  We will see how he does... he has tried quitting a couple times before and has only made it a couple days... so we will see. 

I think that I got the tent squared away.  The tent that they wanted to give us was too big, but I think we finally have the right size and I am going to sign the contract today and send in the down payment.  After September 1st, when I am able to finalize my numbers a little more, I will be able to send in the rest of the money.  YAY!  So exciting - right?  Only 4 more weeks and I am no longer going to be a "Boatman."

My dad and I got into a little tiff yesterday, but that has become normal in our relationship.  I had already told him that I wasn't going to give him any information about the rest of the family and if he wants to know anything about them, then he needs to call them himself.  Well yesterday he started in on his questions with what has Jeremy been up too, what has Danielle been up too and I quickly cut him off and told him if he wanted to talk about them, he needed to call them or go see them.  He quickly became enraged and started cusing about how it was BS and some more stuff... I was just like whatever.  I am so sick of being in the middle of their stupid little wars, so therefore I have completely removed myself from the situation.    He will soon learn not even to mention them too me...

So Joe decided last night that he doesn't want to wear the same shirt my dad and Jeremy are wearing to the wedding.    Just when I thought I was done with shopping for clothes for the wedding... I guess I was wrong.  It made since though cause he was saying that we aren't having a bridal party so therefore he doesn't want to match anyone, blah, blah, blah... so I need to find him another shirt - lucky me!!!    Hopefully I can find one in the next couple of days. 

Other then that wedding planning is basically winding down... I am soon not going to have anything else I need to get!  YAY!!!    Almost done... Almost done...

So this weekend was pretty jammed packed of things that we must get done - but it turned out okay.  I actually had an awesome weekend.  On Friday, my mom and I went to go look at the tents and talk to the guy about renting them and everything.  We picked the package that we want and we are going to work with some girl named Cookie to get everything set up.  I really like this place that we are going to get them because they actually set up the tents a few days before your event so you have time to decorate and everything and then they take it down two days after your event.  The tent that we are getting is a package deal so it comes with the tent, the tables and chairs and a dance floor.  I am really excited about the whole deal. 

After that Joe and I got all dressed up and we went to my friend's Cassie's sister's wedding.  The wedding was beautiful, but the reception was sort of lame.  The DJ sucked horribly and was playing slow song after slow song and people started getting bored and ended up leaving within an hour.  By the time she cut the cake, 1/2 of the reception party was gone!  I felt bad for her, but she didn't seem to notice or care.  The cake lady is the same lady that is doing Joe's and mine cake and it was absolutly beautiful and tasted even better - so that made both of us at ease with the whole cake thing!    I think Cassie is going to try to set something us for us to meet up like this week or next week!!!  We will see...

After that - we had to go home and change into regular clothes to go to another reception that was taking place.  We had a blast at that one... it was fun as hell.    And all and all it made my birthday a lot of fun.  Good stuff... I was excited.  Nugget had also come home so she was at that one... so it was nice catching up with her and what not.  Good stuff.  We didn't end up getting home until 2:00 and then the neighbors where outside awaiting our return to help us celebrate my birthday.  So we stayed out there until about 4:30.  Good times... I love my neighbors.  Every weekend it is like everyone just comes outside and has a good time... drinking, talking, doing whatever.  It is fun.  The whole building is basically out there... I am so happy that Joe and I got our own place!!! 

Oh I forgot to tell you about my gifts - Joe got me another pair of diamond earrings.  I have been talking about getting another pair forever... because I wanted something to put in  my 2nd hole, so he ended up getting me them.  They are beautiful.  They are bigger then the ones my dad got me for my 21st birthday... I think that is when he got them for me... I forget... so I had to put Joe's in the front hole and my dad's in the 2nd - so I am bling-blinging... hahaha... Then he also got me a TomTom (navigation system) for my car.  I been wanting one those too... and then Sunday he took me out to eat crabs!!!  So I basically got totally spoiled from him.    My momma got me a gift certificate to a spa place to use before the wedding, so that is cool... then my dad got me a gift certificate to a mexican restaurant that I like... then my brother got me a coffee pot, some coffee, some creamer and stuff like that (I was thrilled with that because I needed one really bad but kept forgetting to buy it when I went to the store!!), Brooklen got me a CD and then my sister is going to take me out to eat this coming weekend to Sakura.  YUM.    So basically I had an awesome birthday. 

On Saturday I had to go to Nugget's daughter's birthday, she was turning two.  I was pretty exhausted and wanted to leave around 5:00 to go take a nap, but she kept asking me to help her do stuff... well around 6:00 we went to go look at her brother's bike and all of a sudden I see my brother's big head.  I was like why is Jeremy here?  Then I see my mom, Joe, Jessica, and Brittany... I almost cried... hahahaha... they all brought me a cake and what not.  I seriously had no idea... it was cool.  So then for the rest of the evening we just sat around - made a camp fire and what not.  It was fun. 

So as you can imagine - on Sunday I was completely exhausted.  I am seriously surprised that we even made it out to dinner for crabs.  But other then that I was basically just laying on the couch, watching TV... I had a good birthday weekend... but as we all know - it must come to an end...

Last Wednesday, I found out that one of the kids my mom watched when I was kid, he was 3 years behind me died.  I was totally heart broken of course because we basically grew up together since he was always at our house and he also went to ANS with us.  His name was Michael Tayman.  Tonight we have to go to his viewing and there I am going to decide whether or not I can handle his funreal.  I am not sure if I will be able too.  I basically cried all Wednesday night, Thursday, and a little on Friday.  On Friday, it was in the paper and it said that he was an organ donor so with him dying he was able to give three people life.  I was happy to hear that because at least he didn't die in vain, but it made me cry.  He had a purpose, but it is just so sad that he went so young.  I am a little scared to go to the viewing, for one because I know my mother is going to be basket case - but for two I just hate it when young people die.  It is just heart breaking because it is like they haven't even really had a chance to live... I don't know...  Blah. 

So yesterday was supposed to be a fun fulfilled day.  My mom and I took off to take Brooklen to Kings Dominion - so we wouldn't have to deal with the weekend crowds.  Well when we were almost there my sister called crying hysterically because my dad and her gotten into it.  Of course they both said some bull shit and of course most of it had to do with me.  I don't know why they can't leave me out of their stupid fights... it is retarded.  My sister supposedly was bitching about how she needed a car and I have bought two new cars, which of course she knows my grandparents bought them for me and then they also got Jeremy a new car... then somehow they got onto the the subject of the wedding and my dad told her that she isn't allowed to bring whoever to the wedding and then somehow it got turned into that I told my dad all this crap about the guy she is dating, which I never did - I just don't know why or how I got brought into it.  So my sister calls my mom and me screaming and crying... then me and her get into this huge fight because she is telling me to turn the car around because she wants her daughter home now - I scream some choice words at her and told her if she wanted her to come get her cause I wasn't going to ruin Brooklen's day.  By the end of the day my sister and I were made up... but I knew I was still going to have to deal with my dad because the whole day him and my sister were fighting, saying stupid shit to each other.  My brain was ready to explode. 

So this morning, I accidently woke up late and had to drive in and on my way to work I got to deal with my dad.  I called him because he had left me six messages about stupid stuff, I didn't even listen to them all because he basically repeats himself over and over and over.  I really don't know why he wastes his breath.  But yeah so we got into this morning... I told him that it isn't his wedding, so he has no right to tell people who they can bring and who they can't bring, I don't care if my sister's goes and finds a homeless crackhead that holds a sign for a living, she can bring whoever the hell she wants because that day is about Joe and me... I am not going to start a war telling her to bring this person or not to bring that person and if you feel like you can't handle her date, DON'T COME.  It is as easy as that... I think that you can handle FOUR HOURS of acting civil to whoever is there - if you can't, DON'T COME.  How hard is that - it is your choice, but I am NOT starting some WAR just because you don't care or approve of who my sister is going to bring - get over yourself, suck up your GOD DAMN PRIDE for 4 hours.  Then I went on to tell him how basically I am SICK of my family... for 25 years (as of tomorrow) I have had to deal with the bickering, the bad mouthing, the cusing, the screaming of this person and that person - I REFUSE to do it another 25 years.  If you want to know about Dee, call her yourself... if you want to know about Jeremy, call him yourself.  Don't ask me about him or her, don't bitch to me about him or her... I DON'T CARE.  I am so sick of it.  And for on now if he does or if anyone in my family starts bitching or bad mouthing another person in my family and I am on the phone - I am hanging up... if I am at their house, I am leaving.  I am DONE.  I don't want to be in the middle of their little stupid wars, their little stupid games.  GET OVER YOURSELVES.  I have my own life, I need to make myself happy and my family is going to end up giving me a god damn ulcer!!!  And that is how I feel - I think they all are a bunch of pyscho's that bitch about each other way too much and I am stuck in the middle and I am DONE.  Seriously.  And when I have family functions I am inviting everyone and their significate other and if you can't deal with it - DON'T COME.  I am done playing these stupid games.  And it is that easy.  So of course after I said that my dad went right back to bitching about my sister, I cut him off and I was like if you don't change the subject - I will hang up on you.  This is your warning... GET OVER IT or CALL HER AND BITCH ABOUT HER TO HERSELF.  I don't want to hear it!!!

I just don't understand why people just can't get along.  I mean I know my dad doesn't approve of who she dates, but seriously he isn't the one sleeping with them so who cares.  He doesn't pay her bills, doesn't do shit for her, so as far as I am concern she can date whoever she wants, whenever she wants.  She can have a damn orgy in her apartment for all I care.  You aren't going to make her stop dating the guys she dates just because you bitch at her, you aren't going to make her change her preference in men - so get over it.  And if you can't deal with it, remove yourself from her life - and just because you feel the way you do, I am not going to remove her from my life because I have accepted who she is and who she dates because I WANT to be in her life, she is my sister.  And that is that.  And when their is a family function I think you can be civil and if you can't screw you - don't come.    I am not starting a war just because you don't accept it because I DO. 

My blood is freaking boiling.  It is just so freaking retarded.  Get over it.  I just don't understand the big freaking deal.  But guess what - I am going to put this behind me and not worry about it.  People need to make their own decisions and personnally I think it is wrong for you to disown someone just because of who they date.  But I know the day of the wedding, I am not stressing on anyone and who they bring to the wedding - it is mine and Joe's day and if my dad is going to act like an ass just because I didn't tell my sister that she couldn't bring someone, then he can miss that day.  I am done with the wars.  And I am defiantly hanging up and walking out on people now.  They will eventually learn I don't want to hear it and leave me the hell out of their stupid little wars.  I don't like to argue, I don't like to fight, and I refuse to do it just because my family are a bunch of drama queens.  If you don't got nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all!!!  I am tired of hearing negative, I want to hear the positive, and if you aren't going to give me positive - DON'T TALK TO ME.  Seriously.  URGH!!!  Can I scream, is that allowed!?!?!  GOD DAMN IT. 

So over the weekend - I was busy as hell.  Running around here and there.  I didn't make it down to the tent place, but I did accomplish everything else that needed to be accomplished.  My mom and I are going to the tent place on Friday morning. 

Yesterday when I came into my work - my desk had huge piles everywhere.  I couldn't believe it.  It took me like a 1/2 hour just to find my freaking keyboard.  I was pretty pissed off about it because a lot of the paperwork could of been filed nicely in my bins that I have hanging behind me.  But noooo... they would rather just throw it on my desk and let me deal with the mess. 

Back to the weekend because that is what makes me happy!    Jessica and I went to that Trader Joe's place on Saturday and ended up walking out of there with 4 cases of wine!  Crazy, I know - we got a white, a blush, and a red, then the lady that was helping us had us try these two sparkling wines because they didn't have the champaigne I wanted and they were yummy so we split a case of the white sparkling and the red sparkling.  We defiantly looked like alcholics - hahahaha.

Well the boss has started his tasking... yay!   

So yesterday morning I woke up and felt like I had literally been hit by a MAC Truck.  I went to the doctors as soon as it opened and it turns out I have a severe sinus infection and a double ear infection - I felt like death was knocking at my door.  While I was there the doctor gave me this pill, to help me get through my day, and by the time I left I actually felt a little better. 

I went and turned in my prescriptions and then went to the courthouse to elimate some of the duties I need to accomplish on Friday.  So now Joe and I have a marriage license!  So exciting!!!    After I got my medicine I went home and started stuffing my envelopes for the invitations, printed out the addresses on these clear labels that I bought, and now all I need to do is label them, stamp them, and get them in the mail tomorrow.  Everything is coming along, I tell ya... everything is coming along. 

I still don't feel that great this morning, but I was able to drag my ass out of bed today and get to work.  I drove just in case I wanted to leave early but by the amount of work that was piled on my desk yesterday I doubt I will be able too.    But ah wells... at least I only missed one day.  Next week is a short week for me too because on Wednesday we have a plan to go to Kings Dominion and then that Friday I took off simply because it was my birthday and Cassie's sister is getting married, so we are going to the wedding. 

The DJ sent over the contract yesterday so I am about to mail it back to him with the payment, so that will be out of the way.  Still planning on going and figuring out the tent arrangements tomorrow... Let's see what else do we have to do?  Oh yeah, we have to sign the pre-nup, maybe I will get that taken care of sometime this weekend... alrighty then... I am getting back to work.  BYES!

So yesterday around 3:00, I started getting an "itch" in my throat.  I figured it was just allergies or something.  Well this morning when I wake up - I feel like crap. 

I just finished printing off all my invites.  I was going to address the envelopes last night but I couldn't find a pretty pen and didn't feel like going and getting one from CVS so I decided I will just do that tonight.  Then on Friday, mail here they come!!! 

I have a busy weekend this weekend and I seriously just realized it.  I am sort of blown because I really just want to sit on my couch and do nothing.  These are my plans:

FRIDAY:

- Go to courthouse and get marriage license

- Go to tent rental place

- Meet up with Cassie for lunch

- Go shopping for Cassie's sister's bacherlotte (sp?) party

- Go shopping for dish that I am taking to bacherlotte party (still need to figure out my dish )

Saturday:

- Meet Jessica at 12:00 to ride up to Trader Joe's to pick up wine

- Make food for bacherlotte party

- Go to bacherlotte party

My weekends always seem to run together.  They just never seem quiet anymore.    Maybe next weekend will be quiet - one can only hope.

So as always the weekend came and went without my knowledge.  I don't feel like I got anything accomplished.    Lets see... what did I do this weekend.  On Friday, Joe and I came home from work exhausted and we both fell asleep.  We didn't end up getting up until 9:00 and then my sister, these two people that live below her, Joe and I sat out on the porch talking until 4:00 in the morning.  We went back to bed and then the next morning I woke up at 11 and had to go to Greg's Driving School to take this test to keep my license.  MVA said that I had too many points or something so I had to take a driving improvement class.  hahaha.  I got a 90 on the test - only missed one, so obviously I know the rules, I just drive too fast.    Hopefully, maybe, I will slow down - we will see.  Then after that I went to my moms because Brooklen, her, and me were going to a Taylor Swift/Rascel Flatts concert.  The concert started at 8:00 and we ended up leaving around 5:30 which I thought would give us ample time because it was only at the Nissan Pavallion which is about an hour away from my moms.  Well, when we got on 66 we hit a ton of traffic, but ended up taking the Nissian Pavallion exit around 7:15 - so I still thought that we would be able to park and everything with no problem, maybe miss a few minutes, but not much - boy was I wrong.  Once we could see the Nissian Pavallion it was like traffic just stopped and was going no where!  I was getting so annoyed and just wanted to scream - we were literally maybe 30 feet from the parking lot entrance, just sitting - no movement.  I was hot!!!    Then we hear the music start - Brooklen of course got upset because she really wanted to see Taylor Swift.  So almost an hour into trying to get into the parking lot, I finally told my mom that she should just take Brooklen and go find the seats so Brooklen at least could see Taylor Swift.  So they got out and booked it.  I didn't get parked until 8:45, ran to my seat to see one song of Taylor Swift.  I was so hot - so mad!!!    The reason why the parking sucked so bad was because they had no one directing traffic so everyone was just driving and doing whatever they wanted.  I was annoyed.  We watched the rest of the show and then ended up leaving.  The show let out around 10:30 - but because of no one directing people where to go we weren't able to get out of the parking lot until 11:30 - annoyed, again.  I didn't end up getting my mom home until 12:30 and didn't get home to my apartment until 1:00.  I was exhausted.  Yesterday I didn't really accomplish much - we went to my mom's to do laundry, then came home and I laid on the couch wishing Monday morning wouldn't come!!!  But as we all have noticed - Monday is here and I have to complete a work week. 

I printed out my invitations today, so tonight I am going to sit at the table and address all the envelopes so I can mail them on Friday.  Then hopefully people will send them back to us quick so I can finish the rest of the plans!!!  This Friday I am off so I am going to go to the tent rental place and get all that into place.  I need to order Joe's shirt, so he has something to wear.  Saturday afternoon, Jessica and I are going to end to that place in VA to pick up all the wine.  Then I just need to get regular drinks, like soda and water.  I will probably most likely end up going to BJ's to get that crap.  Exciting.  Everything is falling together perfectly!!! 

Finally Friday!  Yay!!!  Awesome!!!  So Joe is working in DC today so he dropped me off and is going to pick me up.  Riding the van isn't all that bad - but it is nice driving with someone you know and can have a conversation with.  In the van, I just get on and then go to sleep.  This morning Joe and I talked all the way in and I don't feel as tired as I usually do - but then again, it is Friday.  Friday's are my favorite days!!! 

Last night I went and got my hair done then afterwards Jessica, Brittany, and I went to Bennigan's to get something to eat.  Jessica wanted to stop by Casey's to catch up with a couple of friends before we both went home - but in the middle of dinner she decided that she was tired and wasn't going to.  I was sort of happy about that because all I was thinking about was my bed.  I did met this lady at the hair shop and she recently just got married in her back yard so she gave me a bunch of places to look for tents and then the shirts that she had her guys wear is sort of like the shirt I want Joe to wear so she gave me that website so I could order them.  I thought that was nice of her - she was very informative and gave her information freely.  Sometimes people want to make it hard on you and basically tell you to find your own vendors or your own websites... but she was very nice about the whole deal. 

Oh and next weekend Jessica and I are heading up to VA to get the wine.  Cassie emailed me over the list and the directions so we should be good to go!    It is amazing to me how everything is just randomly falling into place.  I still have not stressed out once about it or gotten nervous.  We will see how long that keeps up!